On the edge of transition

The second half of last year was a chaos period for me, a lot of things just happened all of a sudden, without any notice or preparation. And I somehow lost myself. Hence lost some relationships, some persons who care about me and I care about, along the way. I have been moody, distant, shallow, annoying and even when I am with others, I feel so disconnected. I was stuck in my own mess and didn’t know what I wanted anymore. I have spent a lot of time to figure things out and to find the doorway. The process is definitely not comfortable but I do think that it has some meanings in my life. By getting over the pain, I’ve learnt to leave the past burden behind, to release old ways of expressing my feelings, to face and accept the truths, learnt to let go and move on to be happy. It just like I am going through a major transformation and getting ready to consciously find new meaning in my life, to manifest a new reality. Adapt to the growth. And take a big leap forward.

I’ve also learnt to appreciate people around me, I love all my friends who came to me no matter how far they are, who left me alone as I like but would always be there if I need them, who kept encouraging me and be with me, who was so patient, understading and alrtuistic. It’s great to know that there are a lot of people out there care about you and love you, even when you are down :D It was such a motivation and beautiful thing in life.

I hate chaos. So my first priority in the year 2009 is to be more spiritually balanced, to feel secure, safe and centered so that I can focus on making the life I want.

Talking about spirit, I took a random card from the Zen card pack right on the transitional moment to be a guide for the new year. And it turned out to be a good one to follow. Another plus is that it is a GREEN card, my good color, ha ha.

The second charm is the Lucky envelop that my aunt & uncle gave me. I love its picture – the love birds. Yeah, it’s spirit, not superstitious :D

And finally, horoscope. Even though people said that it is not a good year for goat persons and obviously not a good year for economy, I like the optimistic forecast I found for Virgo. And I believe it :D

CAREER

You are greatly empowered in your creative endeavors this year, and you emerge like a butterfly from a long sleep in a cocoon! This personal transformation has you sharing wisdom and knowledge your might have never known you possessed. Great potential awaits you as you find new sources of personal strength.

You are feeling very playful, and being creative is the only type of career that will satisfy you. You will be recognized as someone who can totally transform nothing into something ... an alchemist of sorts. The beauty and magnificence that arises from your self-expression feels like a celebration in and of itself. During the summer months, a new contract opportunity may appear; go for it, but make sure you don’t take on more than you can handle. You will be paid handsomely for what you do, and you welcome the challenges.

By the fall, career advancement is very possible for you, and with that, greater responsibility. Your far-reaching ideas will be well compensated. Your optimism helps you stay on the bright path, and you can overcome any hurdle. You are learning lessons of faith in your own process, and it’s helping you create a positive attitude and harmonious work environment. The world welcomes your positive energy of love and service to others. You see a higher purpose in your work, and this helps you focus on attaining your dreams.

LOVE

Your abundant energy helps you fell your home with love, creativity and joy. This helps attract a partner who is altruistic and who gives you the emotional security you want. Remember, you don’t have to do everything yourself, otherwise you'll get bogged down with details. Learn to trust your relationship and know that your loved one is there to support you.

You are very connected to your feelings -- especially this year -- and need your lover to be right there with you --from helping you manifest your dreams to cultivating your idealism. Having values and ideals in common will help you both relax and find fulfillment in this relationship. In fact, everyone loves being around you because of your contagious optimism.

You feel at your best when there is elegance in your life, so make sure you have beauty, music and art around to keep your spirits high and to enrich your relationships with those you love. Joy and pleasure bring you closer to the mystical aspects of grace and beauty -- which is what you love so much about being in a one-on-one relationship. This is a good time to renew your vows and commitment with that special person in your life.